A Mother's Grief

Today, I am sad that there seems to be no connection between us. I grieve the lack of joy in your spirit, and the fact that the smile that used to greet me EVERY.SINGLE.DAY is gone.

I hear frustration in your voice and long for the love and snuggles on the couch that we used to share. While I can remember those sweet moments, I will miss them, not knowing if they will ever return. I watch you grow up into a man, and are ready to be on your own.

My heart hurts, aches, and feels trampled on. Is this the love of a mother? Today, I give myself permission to feel that sadness and maybe a few tears will fall down my cheek. Letting go is hard. I hope you know how deeply I love you and always will.

Some days, I feel like I failed. Others, I remind myself I truly did the best I could. I will always love you!

Mom